Dear heart, sorry for the damage..
I sincerely wanna to apologize for not being well and fine to it all these while...
Unexpected things happened, not currently but consistently for the past few months. Trying so hard to heal it and sometimes get totally out of idea and immune of it...
Often, is always a practice where girls color their face with a big and huge smile, don't get me wrong, we are not being FAKE, is just that we grow. We know when to put a smile and when not to.
Today, frankly speaking, my mood sucks, totally sucks.
You ask me why?
I hope I am being able to give you an answer, but sorry, I don't know. Feelings seems messing up and the lost piece seems disappear, I'm still trying hard to search for the missing piece, STILL.
Pain was acting up consistently...deep inside, right here where my heart located.
I don't complain or put the fault on somebody else. I know is a growing process that I need to explore by myself, only me, myself. True enough, life is full of ups and down. We may be happy for a moment, but yet get drowned again by the rubbish issues again. Rubbish issues i called it, cuz I actually hope to throw all those unhappy piece of shit to the dustbin. Okay, I'm being too negative by now, but just let me be ... at least this moment..a day or two...
Never take short cuts in life, always take the ordinary long route cuz you will be able to pick up more experiences along the way.
Dear god, I am really getting enough and sick of it already. please let me have some rest before placing me in the battle field again.
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