Unplanned Journey

Life has never been easy for an individual like me. 

(Since I am given a chance to choose my path, I suppose).

Being someone placed between the late 20s and early 30s to be, I feel the continuous pressure and stress knocking up my life's door. I am being in the state of uncertain. I have no idea why, but today, I think I really need to sit down, grab a pen and a paper to really figure out what I should be doing, now or the coming years. 

Gaining myself a place in real estate related company since i graduated from the university. Nothing seems fancy so far, is just like any other typical 9-5 office hour job, wearing office wear, dealing with documents, facing computer and handing clients. MONDAY BLUE KILLS me every week. 

Is this the life I want? 

They said, 

"working your favorite job is like the best damn thing ever happen,

 you wont feel like working while spending your life"

I cant clarify how true the statement was, STILL. 

Sounds pretty pity here =(

Interest doesn't put food on your table 

( I wrote this down in my notepad, is still there at the little corner in my car)

just a self reminder, i called it.

I does not know what I want in my life still, is a journey with starting point that i am taking, but sadly, I am lot of direction.

Need some alone time to figure out what I really want.

I feel tired with my current situation, I know this statement shouldn't be at my wall. 

I know, I shouldn't have complain my current life when they are more individual out there struggling gaining themselves a job. 

I guess,

 I should like once, 

listen to myself, 

which path should I follow.

Need rest, is gonna be another Wednesday blue for me, although Wednesday is the most favorable day of the week as is MOVIE DAY!!!! At least something to be looking up for, i guess =)

Till then,

Sin Yin

Pleased No One

Is kinda impossible for me to show up this early listening to the birds singing right now at this moment, rarely happen in my life as I am so a bed-person, sleeping is never an issue to me, insomnia rarely reported themself in mylife, but today I am awake sitting here to blog, now you must be smelling something. 

YES, I am super pissed off  now. 

After plenty of drama, real-life drama, I realized promises are fragile, breakable and yet not trust-able enough,  in friendship and yet in love.

No one will know how much I suffer and gone through the previous relationship, cuz I seldom expose to the entire world bout my shit thing! Is not about begging for pityness. What I mean here is seldom, not NEVER. I understand how friends support can help someone in building stronger confidence in facing the break-off but in the end, after all sorts of impressive stories, you will still have to deal with your own shits alone, ALL BY YOURSELF. Do you gonna think the whole world cares? What friends can do is really limited, when it come to an end in relationship, all you have to do is get up of the shit and keep walking. I know how tough to do it in compare to the words I wrote here. Is tough, and this is how I feel it too. Things eventually happen when I'm struggling for my studies, have to tune back myself in the correct position and keep going is never easy. How do you judge me that Im not upset although when I keep posting photos on social media? By the smile hanging on my face or by the stupid comments I replied?

This is not Right, how much pain I suffered. I know it all by myself, again I mentioned, by MYSELF. After all, those people out there, welcome to judge me, I'm so tired to pleased everyone out there, so tired. Relationship is about two, no one gonna be more conscious and clear besides the two parties that involve. Arggg, I am so sick to listen of those people that dont know bits and pieces of story but judging like a professional. 

Lastly, I wanted to let you know how much I hold back for you previously, I would not claim that I did so much for this to end peacefully, but at least I did something, I'm not telling people how sick I am handling with my own relationship, and in fact, those memories between us both, I keep it. I'm sorry for posting such a post, but this time you really freak me out, seriously you did. 

Food-Off Day

Its May! 

Time passes so fast, 2 more months I gonna quite my permanent job as a student and become unemployed, this is such a sad news to announce here. Still deciding what to do next. They very first day I stepped in here, I wanted to go back home so badly, and I even ask Santa to grant me a wish - Get GRADUATED real fast! And, surprisingly he granted my wish 4 YEARS LATERRRRR.... and I am about to graduate so soon. 

Lesson: Santa grant wishes, is just the matter of time and our effort made.

* Breath in breath out breath in again....and breath out again...

Ohh, duh! holiday's oxygen smells so good. Is just like a official excuses that we get to stay on bed longer and be more lazier to drag our body out from the bed compare to usual day. Actually, I just woke up after my eyes closed at around 3pm, so after applying all those Mathematics formula, I slept for almost 5 hours plus!! Feel so cool, I can really sleep damn much. I guess I spend 2/3 of my life sleeping on bed, which never make me a better person but a lazier girl today.

Well, so yesterday, we (a bunch of girls) actually stole this girl from her bf to drive us out to town for the best Chicken chop in town (posted in instagram- http://instagram.com/sinyin108). Is actually a place located near city square JB, is always crowded, so hard to get a place on weekend and also parking (I hate this!). One of their signature...signature...signature/label of the restaurant is that the workers are mostly ah ma (oh lady), and they're kinda fierce and speaks kinda loud, still figuring out why. Actually, the signature dishes was the chicken (fried/grilled), I opted  for grilled as less oil, which able to make my tummy smaller but actually it doesn't work. Hate my tummy, I dare not wear super high waist shorts nowadays as I look like expecting! This is nightmare! Blame the girls for the food! Hahahahahaha.... 

p/s: Ignore the leaf 

After a short walk at the nearest mall, we went for FOOOODDDD again!! Those girls wanted to killed me indirectly, they said they wanted to bring me for the oreo cheese at The Moonlight Cake house or Cafe something , but then there was a talk yesterday near the area and the traffic was super jam so we changed destination to our most favorite mamak stall for roti canai!! Roti Canai again! And I order Roti Planta with no Planta! Wth! Changed and get a new roti, so I ate 1 and 1/4 portion of roti. The funniest thing is today, we went for abalone noodles with no abalone, cuz they missed out. So funny! Is just labor day, not food-off day. Sigh. So we complained complained and complained. (Typical ah ma job) , then after that we went for the best ice kacang in town! Only manage to finished the top part which is completely coated with chocolate syrup, I only love chocolate =D

So, how can I not be fat? how can I not gain weight? * Flip table!

This is the the so called You Tiao in Rojak sauce

Good Man hard to find

Guess most of my mates was busying with their studies right now and yet I am wasting time here at this column. Not so active recently, but was just too happy and excited, lecturer cancel tomorrow class!!! Hooray! My study mood is still not on currently. Lazy bugs all over my body~ 

Wanted to blog something related to what lecturer touch on today in his Quality Management Class, which is JENG JENG JENG JENG -----> Quality aspect of man which women want for. Is not being choosy, is just all of us may have a measurement scale of what type of partner we are looking for as a spouse for future. But this so called quality aspect may varies depend on ppl as it was something so subjective and hardly defined.

1. Ambitious - I dont know why, but for me, ambitious is one of the main aspect I will fall for a guy. Ambitious as in, he is someone that is highly motivated in doing everything. Strike hard, aimed high. It does not matter if his is born in a sliver spoon, even ppl who born in silver spoon dont have such a quality. Feel much secure to depend and rely on a man like this, at least he has the determination and desire to succeed. Never stop but keep pushing kind of attitude, it maybe tired keep striking for the best, but that's life, we couldn't stop even for a moment,aren't we..

2. Loving - It doesn't mean that we need to celebrate every single occasion together such as Valentine, Anniversary, Birthday or etc, just not someone that so particular on these special commercialized day. A simple loving msg is more than enough to melt me. What I mean loving here is the way he shows appreciation and express his love. A morning text msg before I am fully awake and a good night msg before I get back to bed means more than a dozen roses. ( Erm, sometimes roses means more too!Haha!) Or doing something silly * Write a love letter/love email as an excuses to shower and show love, a kiss on the forehead? ( So, dramatic hor? Blame the korean drama for this.) Erm, or may be a dress as pressie which I can wear for our date, sounds sweets..=)  Being loving once in awhile, just another excuse to fall in love again with him. 

Bank account perhaps?

 HAHAHAH...

3. Responsible - Or the other word - committed/ plan for future?? maybe... Im so much relieve if a guy know what to set as priority and what as secondary. If someone tell you, I used to spend for stuff I like but now after being with you, I will control and limit my spending, cuz I need to consider the $$ incurred during our dates/movie/birthday pressie, then he will definitely be the right guy. I wouldn't need to be first in his list, but at least after studies/career/ family. Being responsible also mean that he know his position well, not flirting or kidding around with girls, clear with his limit, and that's the important aspect I think most of the girls concern. Being responsible also as a student, a son, a boyfie score the highest!

4. Big Eater!! - Haha, this is weird. I know is weird, but I just love someone that can eat 2 bowls of laksa, 1 sirloin steak, 2 mushroom soup, 3 apple pies, 4 doughnut, 5 cups of chatime! LOL, kidding. I love big eater so much because, I can try different food and when I cant finish it, he can K.O everything into his tummy. * Evil smile. Make him super fat! Seriously, there is some stuff I dont fancy in placing them in mouth such as egg yolk, green pea, tomatoes, sometimes cucumber and more, for not wasting anyfood, I hope I hope he can you know, taste it on behalf of me. =D

5. Understand me - Nah, this is tough. Is tough, seriously. Sometimes, my mood easily swings, maybe when the sky turns dark, the sun shins too bright or menses says ahhlo.. I just easily battery down and mood down, EASILY. That is why I need someone that truly deeply understand me and stay by me during this critical time, just to make sure Im ok. Normally, I will switch back to normal mood after 24hr. Yes, only 24 hrs, maybe sometimes 48 hrs.. 还是一条好汉 after the next day..

Of cuz, Im not a angel from heaven, is just some personal requirement that I consider of having. But no doubts, feel still come first. 

Happy Weekend in advance!

Yours truly 

Mr February with love

It's February! A heavy month where two of the most important days fall on: Chinese New Year and Valentine's day! 

Time flies, I never ever had enough time for rest. After tones and tones of assignment, tests, breath taking fyp now came busying with works! Get back to the place where I somehow realize what the working world was, a place where only customer rights and non stop bargaining voices around. Totally chaos! ( " No discount ar? No discount meh? I know your boss leh, u go and check for me lah. I wonder, do my boss really knows the whole world?!! ) In order to deal with these fussy type of buyers,I can smash the whole solid timber wood. 

7 more days to Valentine!

Cant wait! At least no more Chinese New Year songs but romantic love songs, honestly, recently was so much about Chinese New Year songs, I almost vomit listening to it for couple of weeks!! REALLY GEH!  Not much to blog bout this Chinese new year preparation, shop was just totally covered by those CNY bamboo, fresh flowers and hampers.. 

Looking forward for Valentine's Day even more. I remember last year, I worked till around midnight during Valentine's eve, dare not think about it this year.

Valentine's Day was totally about FLOWERS, ORDERS, SLEEPLESS NIGHT!! 

I hate when people ask me..

him : " Miss, Can I check with you what do 6 stalks of roses mean"

me: " Oh, I miss you much"

him:" How about 9 stalks of roses?"

Me: " I miss you much much much."

Him:"  Oh...Har??!! How bout a dozen?"

Me:" I miss you much much much much much much...."

Him: " .... "

Me: " No lah, was just joking!Haha!"

Honestly is actually a marketing tactic. If love you forever represented by 99 stalks of roses which cost you rm1500, will you still buy? See, same thing. So, dont ask anymore, cuz it doesnt make any difference still lah, just buy according to your budget will do. 

QUESTION No.2 (How long does the roses last?)

Ok, it depends. Fresh petals last according to how you take care of them and their condition, the environment (weather) and much more other factor. Today, a customer asked, " I heard hor, ppl say put some washing liquid in the water the flowers might last longer, is that right?" WTH, I stun, do you think is logic? == I really almost faint. See, if you want the flowers to last longer, give them H2O, human needs water, flowers need them to, DAILY. Just give them appropriate amount of water and they will certainly last longer, as easy as that. No funny funny things.

QUESTION No.3 ( What flower do you think she will like? What flowers do you like?)

Haha, most funny question ever! " 小姐，你是女子，你一定懂女生喜欢什么花的啦“ Got such things de meh? How do I know the girl's taste???? Aiyo..

So, I will randomly answer some of the common flowers, roses, daisies or lilies lor.. or not just choose options 4 which is ---  buy a garden which includes roses, lilies, daisies, sunflower, orkids, grass, baby breath, sweet williams, eustoma and more.. easy, all in one. She will melt even more!

See more @ Alice Florist Valentine 2013

So, that is for today. Happy Chinese New Year in Advance!! Gong Xi Gong Xi.. 

Here's a nice love long. I cant stop listening to it..

完整的浪漫

                                                                                                 Yours Truly

Why men are from mars?

Found out this was an interesting topic on air today in Lite Fm on the way to work, 

"Is it the little things that matters in a relationship?" 

Yea, is not really about the big thing that a woman looking for but the small tiny little thing. 

Sometimes just an action, a words, a little things that comes from the hearts that mean the most and is well appreciated. Dont get me wrong, little things doesn mean things that cost a bOOooooMM, is just that a matters of heart or some sweet action to show how much she is  being cared and loved..

Guys dont see this, u see.

 Some guys have big eyes, 

medium eyes 

and even small eyes, 

they have eyes..

but why they dont SEEEEeeeeee it?

 Whyyyyy... Brain nerves not functioning?

 Hahaha.. But still, there is still some guys that have that ability, i should say. =)

 ( Finally, I see some lights in the dark..)

So,what is the little things? 

Hm.. Little little things....DIAMOND? Hahaha!

This is so me!

Lets see, for example, your eating and chewing on your favorite food and once you saw that, 

you cant even stop yourself but keep eating, 

then your long silky hair happen to slide down through your face

 and he is there to help you to keep it in position, that's sweet. 

Or,he did some little notes to place it in your bags/purse with some short msg such as : 

" Get more water!", 

" You better do miss me only", 

or even " Hey, remember to fill your stomach with more fats, I love fats!",

 just simple words like that can make a girl mood turns from bad to good to better to best the whole day!  That's the power of small little things.

Sometimes, you just have to admit that girls are silly enough to fall for a guy, 

but guy, please also be silly enough to love them deeply.. 

Saw one of my friend posted this video. 

The most breath taking moment, is when a guy you would want to spend a whole life with,

 finally make it a way to ask you the permission to take care for you in the future,

 that's real sweet. I cried when i watch the movie, too 眼浅 jor.. 

but..is so gam tong..

The proposal

Have a great weekend!

Too bad, I have to work tmr and there is no hols for me ='(

Bad girls create history!

Happy 2013!

So, this is a story begin with 5 girls with different background and story but came together with a same mission the first time in life --- To “disappear” the scratch. 

Is seems like a dream came true when we have our own transport here in school, 

no fear of being hungry, late to class anymore!! 

Escaping out from the school in the middle of study night at about 12am just to breath in some polluted air from outside is what we always do. See, we go out even more often after our 4 wheels thingy replace our pitiful legs. And so, more late sleep, more behavior checked (scan matrix card after late enter to school) and the worst thing is, we even found out the car was scratched. 

We gone “ Sei lor, sei lor, this time we gonna die,

 time to really learn our lesson and stay more obedient” . 

Went to shop for CAR WAX! First in the life time!

 screening thru all the available brand to pick for something that able to provide us magical result.

 I think we are maybe somehow acted too kiddo, thinking the scratch will disappear after the wipe. 

Then, we wipe it every day, without failed. 

Imagine like 5 girls wax a car daily, the same old spot, with same old lame face during study week?!

 WTH! Study week and yet we wax car?! 

Yep, we did. 

This is the original actual scratch

Demo on small part of it. BEFORE

 AFTER.

See the result?!

The liquid cost around RM 30 and the result is ok lah.

( fyi, this part i wax it de ok)

This is the after wax result

Impressive result isnt't?

Bad girls create history. See, we created one.

After that, we then realize the scratch wasn’t our fault. 

We end up blaming the silly someone from acting too serious.

 So, then..We party again! 

Went to Danga Bay

There is nice bar/ Italian restaurant :

Great ambiance and cozy feeling

best place for lover 

Lazio-Danga Bay

Danga Bay Marina Club, 80200 Johore Bahru, Johor, Malaysia

 Roomie..roomie...i emh sek tak u much ='(

Happy Birthday!

Guess u had the best birthday pressie this year!

Group take, 

why got 1 more additional male member geh..

Lastly

100 bucks for car waxing

pm for further details!

Great day ahead!

Love,

Me.